Working through grief with a help of angels
As a new member of Helmsman Mediums, I thought it’d be nice to introduce myself and say a few words about how to I came to work with the angelic realm. Although I always had a strong intuition and was a natural empath, I felt that was more of a burden than a gift for most of my life. I would walk down the street and involuntarily pick up on random people’s energies. It was exhausting and I didn’t know how to protect myself from feeling everything and anything. I never felt drawn to developing my intuition until a sudden death of my mother several years ago. Although I always knew that day would come, I wasn’t prepared at all when it happened.
After my mother's sudden passing, I was so consumed with dealing with my father's rapidly failing mental capacity and his own debilitating grief that I didn't start crying until several months later. And when the tears had begun to flow, they hadn't stopped for months. While looking after my father, in the wake of my mother's death, I saw a psychotherapist because I felt completely disoriented and needed to steady myself. The talking therapy helped to some extent, but the healing and working through grief did not start until later.
Grief is a strange beast. No manual can prepare us for how to handle grief. Some experience grief only briefly, while in others, it may last for much longer. Sometimes grief doesn't kick in straight away. Instead, this delayed grief can strike weeks, months, or even years after losing a loved one.
It was only after months of thinking about my father, his grief and deteriorating mental health that I allowed my feelings to surface and to feel my heart pulverized to dust with grief. Only then I started to understand what it means to work through grief. It took months and years of crying, praying and writing before I felt the weight of sorrow lift from my chest.
A pivotal moment in that process happened during my training with the angelic realm when I was introduced to the energy of Archangel Azrael. The floodgates of tears opened up during that encounter. It was very familiar energy, the gentlest of all the archangels I'd met until then and yet so comforting. The healing I experienced with Archangel Azrael and the angelic realm felt like arriving home.
I thought I would never recover from my mother’s death, that life wouldn't be possible without her. It definitely wasn’t possible for my father. He passed away on my mother's death anniversary exactly a year later. His heart gave in. If ever there should have been a death certificate stating a broken heart as a cause of one's death, it should have been my father's.
But despite this double loss of both parents in a year, the angelic realm has enveloped me with so much love and healing, uplifting my heart from deep sadness and filling it up with joy, making it possible not only to continue on this life's path but bestowing a gift upon me of being able to share my experience, knowledge and wisdom with those in need. The angelic realm is always just a whisper of the heart away from us. The angels are ready to comfort us, embrace us with their loving energy and uplift us from sadness and grief to a state of peace and joy. They are always around. We just need to pick up the line and call upon their loving support.
Ivana
