Guide, not Rescuer
Pretty much without exception, clients who contact me are seeking answers and guidance from Spirit. Frankly, that’s a pretty reasonable expectation given the role of a medium. What then, is the best way to deal with the situation where the answer received from Spirit amounts to “The Answer Lies Within”? Are we being led astray by Spirit, abandoned perhaps, left to our worn devices?
As a medium, and as someone who has found themselves in this position recently, I have to say “no, on all counts”. Sometimes, the answer truly is within. Sometimes, the answer is for us to dive into our own material, perhaps to heal the past, perhaps to re-examine our won traumas, perhaps to reassess our motives and drivers in a given situation. The key thing is always to remember, unless we ourselves go out of our way to absent ourselves from our connection to Spirit, their support remains consistent, unwavering and with our best intentions in mind. But at times when we feel that we are at the end of our tether, at our loneliest, it can be hard to keep that in mind.
By the time this article is published, I’ll be in hospital, hopefully having successfully completed the first of two surgical procedures to fix damage done to my lungs and rib cage by COVID-19. That the surgery is significant, in the case of the first procedure, some three to four hours of surgery alone, wold be sufficient reason for me to be apprehensive. However, I’m also facing surgery while carrying significant trauma. During my time with COVID, I suffered a life-threatening injury to my chest cavity that meant my physicians had only minute sin which to re-inflate my left lung. To do so, they had to insert a chest drain, largely without anaesthetic. I’ll not traumatise either you , my reader, with an explanation of what that entails, nor myself by revisiting the experience. Suffice to say that the pain of the procedure, life-saving though it was, very nearly killed me by pushing me into clinical shock. The anaesthetist performing the procedure had to work hard to ensure that while re-inflating my lung, the team did not lose me due to the shock caused by the pain.
I’d love to say that I’m over it. The truth however, is that in the face of the worst pain I have ever experienced, even with excellent psychological support, I’m still experiencing flashbacks that are making the prospect of two more surgical procedures frightening to say the least.
When I contacted Spirit, both sitting for myself as a medium and by reading the Tarot, I’d have given anything for calming words and reassurances. Instead, I got a simple, consistent message - “dive inwards to heal”.
The first few times, I felt angry, abandoned, left to my own devices. I railed against my guides, swore blue murder, screamed inside that I’d never trust them again. The I recalled that they are called “guides” for a reason. What Spirit was reminding me of is that it’s my responsibility to navigate my own life. They can guide, they can advise, they can assist, but what they cannot do is live my life for me.
It’s my responsibility to dive into the trauma that I’ve experienced, healing it so that I can move on. What I’d forgotten, perhaps because it’s so familiar to me, is that at every step, my guides were there supporting me, pointing me in the right direction.
When we reach out to Spirit, every request is answered. The answer may not be provided in the way we want, or hope, but the answer provided is always the one we need. And whether or not we know it at the time, we are and will always be, uplifted, guided and supported by those in Spirit who love us.
Alexander Dalgleish-Weaver
